Posts tagged 2021
A Journey to Self Love

We talk about this “other person” that emerges during the days leading up to our periods. This person that takes over and puts us on a roller coaster of emotions for days, maybe weeks. I used to hate her. But with help, I’ve started to embrace her. Over time, I even learned to love her.

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Life with PMDD and Life After

In my good weeks, I felt on top of my game. I had lots of energy and could do all the normal things like going to work, socialising, being a good girlfriend, cooking, etc. In the bad weeks leading up to my period, I literally crawled into bed and wished I would die…

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The Emotional Toll of Unpredictability in PMDD

As my bad days stretched from 2 days to 4 days, I would question myself: Why am I feeling this on day 12 when I’m not supposed to feel bad til day 14? What if this isn’t PMDD? Am I just being weak and letting things get to me that shouldn’t? Why am I getting worse after all the work I do to stay healthy? Did I forget my supplements? Am I not exercising enough? This self-judgment made me feel so much worse because it made me question everything.

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Alcohol, PMDD, and Me

In the months leading up to my large mental breakdown and PMDD diagnosis, I had begun to use alcohol as a crutch for any and every negative emotion that my PMDD would bring about. Alcohol had become my vice, and I was frightened when I took a closer look at the habits that I had begun to develop…

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What Luteal Looks Like For Me

In my follicular phase, I feel like my normal self: happy, healthy, well-adjusted, and in balance. The luteal phase is a whole different ball game. Progesterone becomes the dominant hormone, and we PMDD sufferers tend to feel terrible. Some people refer to this as ‘hell week’ though for me (and I am sure for many others) it is more like ‘hell fortnight.’

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Becoming a PMDD Advocate

I was ecstatic when I was selected as a member of the Patient Insight Panel. I felt compelled to use my experience to advance the knowledge on PMDD. But I would be lying if I said that any part of it was easy. Truly it was one of the most emotional experiences of my life and some of the most impactful work I have ever contributed to

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No More Shame & Secrecy

For a very long time, my PMDD experience was full of shame and secrecy. Very few knew how I suffered. I could not explain to others “what was wrong with me” because I didn’t know, and at that time, I couldn’t possibly put into words the depths of torture my own mind put me through monthly. In December 2020, I was finally diagnosed and since then my involvement in the world of premenstrual disorders has ballooned!

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Guests at the Table

I realized I was a guest in this patient-oriented space at IAPMD and that my seat at the table was contingent upon my respect for the patient experience. This organization that was built out of shared desperation and trauma was clearly providing a lifeline for so many patients attending the conference, as well as thousands more online. And they couldn’t, just to placate some young scientist's ego, give up their focus on the patient experience.

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PMDD: The Evil Twin

PMDD for me is planning my life around it. I won't travel, schedule anything fun or social, for those 10 days. 10 days. 10 days of my life, bowing down to that nameless "thing" that holds me hostage. That "thing" that turns me into my evil twin. She's mean. She's impatient. She's anxious. She's exhausted…

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I Just Wanted to Feel Peace

When I got my period at twelve years old, my emotions took a turn for the worst. I would spend the next 15 years engulfed with symptoms, the worst of all - suicidal thoughts. I’d learned to hide and suppress my emotions, so no one to this day knows the extent of how serious my thoughts have been…I’m sharing my story with the world because of my daughter. I want her mental health to be supported and accepted as she grows up. I never want her to have to hide who she is or what she’s going through.

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The Weird, Cumbersome Monster that Comes Uninvited

Two years ago, I found out I had PMDD and, since then, I have been walking my personal healing journey. As I walk along the bumpy path of it, I try different things, I go through the ups and downs, and I discover new things about myself. I am conscious that it is a very long and steep journey, but I am also conscious of how much my body, mind, and spirit were disconnected initially, and how far I have come since then.

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Coming Out of the Dark

My “anxiety cycles,” as my loved ones and I called them, began increasing in frequency and severity about three years ago. Rather than occurring 2-3 times per year, they were hitting nearly every four weeks…I try explaining to others how miserable I am, but I can’t find the right words to express the severity of what I’m experiencing. So, I retreat deeper into my own darkness. Days later, the storm lightens a bit, and finally, the sun emerges from the clouds. I put on a brave smile and return to the world, all the while dreading the next cycle that is inevitably on the horizon.

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My New Chapter with PMDD

My PMDD symptoms began two years ago after I had my third child. I would be emotionally inconsolable, crying in the fetal position, yelling nonstop at my husband and kids. I had chills all over like I had the flu and extreme anxiety which made me unable to function. At times I felt completely out of control of my own body.

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